(behind the scenes) Digitale: Exegesis

THESE NEXT FEW POSTS WILL KIND OF BE AN INSIGHT TO WHY I MADE THE FILMS I MADE.THIS ONE WILL BE ABOUT….

I HEART DRAWING

This is a post that really explains my earlier film i heart drawing, explaining why i made it and also why i found it as an avenue of expression.

Well to begin with as you can tell by the title of film i do love drawing. Its really one of the things that i feel passionate about, as alot of hobbies kinda stand for more of ‘glorified phases’ drawing has always kept with me. And in that sense i really wanted to make a short film about something i knew and could come up with alot of material for. If i did try and lie and make up a story that was overly emotional or kinda played out like a cliched ‘indie film’ i knew i wouldn’t have been satisfied with myself and wouldn’t really have wanted people to watch it.

When i took to making the film i approached in a sort of a four act kinda structure. The first act was kinda like a history lesson that fleshed out why i loved drawing and introduce the kind of light hearted feel to my film. The second act went into more of my personal information, though about this information didn’t really feel at all like i was vulnerable or giving too much of my really deep emotion away. It was more just to kind of get a grasp on what type of person aesthictally i was growing up in school.

The third act was probably the most personal and kind of expressed some of the heartaches in my life even if they were just glimpses. I didn’t really comfortable if i told the full stories of these events and i think it would’ve hurt the film more if i did.

And the last act was more about my future with drawing, what wanted to accomplish with my drawing and overall broader life. Which is funny though because as i was writing the script for this my mind kind of came up with a blank and i couldn’t think of anything to write. So i just went with my gut for recording and said what i feel (which turned out to not be much).

So my film is about drawing, which i kind of ended up being more about me. I really made this film with the intention for expressing myself and also about something i love. Though some of the films aesthetic qualities are very much so based around me i hope that people who watch it can really relate to it, even its not a hobby or a skill, even if its a person, a place, a certain song you like to listen to or anything. And i think people will find it interesting that though it might seem like such a minute aspect of your life you will find that alot of your qualities as a person have been shaped by it.